10

I was only awake for about ten hours yesterday. I didn't accomplish a damn thing. Every night I seem to stay up late for absolutely no reason at all then fall asleep at about two in the morning so that the next morning I'll wake up at ten to twelve. Then that day I'll repeat my mundane string of activities that barely count as a life. Ten hours of what...watching TV? Playing guitar? Writing? Do these things help prgress society in any way?
The way my life has been going lately has been reminicent of this past summer. Waking up late, doing nothing, falling asleep even later after talking to friends late into the night. Only this time I haven't been talking to anyone very late. What have I been doing?
I know that I normally joke around and say "wasting oxygen" but now that I look at it, that's exactly what I'm doing. I'm not hanging out with anyone. I'm not talking with anyone. I haven't left my house too much recently. What am I doing?
I could have been following so many activities I had wished to have pursued at one time. I could start a band, but every GOOD musician I know is in a band and everyone else doesnt have the time for it, so that's out. I could write my many many unfinished screen plays, but I seem to be so "busy" with school work I dont have time to waste (or computer memory) to finish any of them. I could read my many books I have purchased and never read but it seems as though I'm too swampped with the books I "HAVE" to read to have time to read them.
All of these excuses with no foundation. I'm preventing myself from having a fulfilling life. There's no one else to blame.

I'm purposly wasting a perfectly good life for no reason at all.