Buy the Ticket, Take the Ride

We make mistakes.
We over react.

We take life much more seriously than we need to which makes it somewhat hard to live. Some of of can take the pressure, but most of us can't.

I had a panic attack on Thursday. I ran out of my spanish class, went straight to the restroom, threw up, and left. I put my things in my car and started walking away from the parking lot.

I kept walking and walking until I made it to this duck pond near my school. I sat down and just proceeded to think. I thought about everything. I thought about everyone. I just....thought.

After a while I tried assessing everything and everyone. I started thinking about who to blame and what to get rid of in my life. I wanted answers to why I was so depressed and why everything wasn't going right in my life. I wanted solutions.

I can't say that I found them, but I managed to weed out my problems. For my privacy, I won't write them down. Though, I realized that we're given a chance to live.

In that lifetime, you are meant to accomplish as much as possible without having to look back and lament at what you didn't accomplish. Life is all about celebrating what you do have because you've spent your life unknowingly trudging toward these rewards, when you finally realize what you have, you wouldn't want to go back and do everything over again just for a different outcome. Whether you believe in God, or Buddha, or fate, or whatever, just know that everything has it's purpose. One thing always leads to another and every chain of events inevitably leads to where you need to be in life.

After I had some time to think, I realized that all of the shit that's been thrown at me was all just a test. A test to see if I understand that everything bad always leads to something good and vice versa. Life can't be perfect, but that doesn't mean we can't try our best to make it as pleasant as we possibly can. If you can't do something and feel bad about it, move on to something you CAN do to raise your self esteem a bit then revisit what you can't do. You can do anything if you care to do it enough.

Life only gets you down if you stop caring. We're given life so we can live it to the fullest. We only get one...so why not?

In the immortal words of Hunter S. Thompson:

"Buy the Ticket, Take the Ride"