The Moon and Mr. Cory

I've been feeling this void inside lately. As if something important is missing. And no matter how hard I try, no matter what I do to try and fill this hole, I can't do it. Something important is missing.
I feel as though everything I accomplish doesn't amount to much. Every day I spend with someone else always feels as though it was somehow wasted. I can spend a whole day with one of my friends, but when the day is over, it comes back to me that the days all appear to be the same. Theres no excitement anymore. No randomness to keep me guessing on my feet. No reason for me to get up in the morning.
I remember when I started school again. That first day I was so happy to be back. Everything was fresh and exciting. I met new people and learned new things. But that faded away almost as quickly as it came.
Everything bores me these days. Hobbies I used to enjoy immensely, ideas that would always take me by surprise, even the people that make me happy every time I see their faces don't seem to spark any fuses of life within me. Everything is so bland now and I don't know why.
I want things to go back to the way they were. When everything I take for granted these days used to fill me with such joy and life back in the day. Back when I could be euphoric from the simple pleasures I would get out of life. But I find myself disappointed from event the most extravagant of accomplishments. I can't find joy in anything anymore and I can't take it.
I can't take the fact that nothing will make me happy anymore even if it's something that brings joy to anyones face. I can't take the fact that I have to go through life with my eyelids half open because I stopped caring whether or not I'll miss a moment of life. I can't take the fact that my friends can't make me happy anymore. There were days where I would light up whenever a friend of mine would call, or would pick me up to go eat, or I would pick them up to go see a movie, or maybe we'd just stay at my house and watch TV. These would have made me so happy back then. But now....nothing.
I need something, but I don't know what.
I need something...maybe even someone to change everything back to the way they're supposed to be and to fill that void that's been plaguing me for a very long time.
I feel like a man on the moon. I've accomplished everything, but I have no one and nothing to share it with. I'm just there alone...what's the point?
I just need something else...someone else...anything else.
I just need something I already have to evolve, someone I already know to let me in, anything I already know to become more.

I just want to be able to feel again.